I just found out from a friend of mine that another friend of mine has been saying some not so very nice things about me.
 
See, while I was dating Steve, I had to fight, beg, plead and cry sometimes just to get some attention from him.  I would see him sometimes once a month.  Not good for a girl who needs attention. 
 
During this relationship with steve, I was hurt, confused and insecure.  There were some breaks in our relationship and during those breaks I did sleep with other people.  At the end of our relationship, I had given up on Steve.  I slept with this one guy.  He didn't want anything from me other than friendship and sex.  Worked perfectly for me, seeing as how I was still dealing with my mixed up feelings for Steve. 
 
Then I met Ivan.  I love Ivan.  I know I was attracted to him from the start.  But I still loved Steve too.  Had to make a decision there.  I chose Ivan.
 
Now how is it that having an active sex life make me a slut?  I would like to know that.  So what if I've had sex with someone?  Doesn't make him see me as an object or make them disrespect me.  As far as I know, the guys that I did sleep with have nothing but respect for me.  I am a very smart and intelligent person.  I work very hard at my job.  I deserve respect from those who know me.  Having an active sex life while you are young does not make you a slut.  Jeleous?  Get your own god damn sex life.  Do someting about your fucking self esteem issues.  Don't talk shit about me just because you have problems in your own head.
 
Most of my friends are men.  Men have dicks.  Just because they have dicks does not mean that I am going to automatically fuck them.  I mean for crying out loud..... there has been a circumstance for every time I was involved with someone.  Not like I just felt like fucking someone so I go out and find some dick to fall on. 
 
If I'm such a whore, why am I being a good woman to Ivan?  I understand that at first I was seeing someone other than Ivan too, but when I made the decision to actually be with Ivan, I made the decision to be with only Ivan.  No one else.  I have no desire to spread my legs for every swinging dick out there.
 
Maybe those insecure people out there need to worry about there own damn selves, give me a fucking break, and if you think I'm a such a slut, have enough fucking balls to tell me yourself goddamit.  Talk shit if you want, but say it to me.  At least then I have an opportunity to defend my self.  Not that I need to explain myself to any one but myself.  Fucking gossip mongers any way.